self reflection
The Well
I'm like, "If I write on Uptrust, what will I write about for my other stuff?" Ugh. That thought is poorly shaped. I believe the shapes of our thoughts create us back. That thought is telling my mind to format like a finite well.... When you take one path. When you take one path, all other paths die and are left behind.
Such is the weight of all our choices.But I'm not good at letting things die. I keep going back and dragging half-alive corpses around. Abomination!
You stink of the dead. Mark your endings and grieve them, foul beast!Sometimes when I feel really unsure about which path to take, like should I invest in a program now or not, I'll tune into each path to notice which one feels lighter...... What are some of your uncertainties? Experiences of failure (that maybe you still haven't turned into learnings yet?) Obvious realizations?
Sharing controversial take can actually lead to a better world. Most of social media today rewards bold claims—but not the process of refining them. The more you double down, the more attention you get.
But I want a world where people can share strong opinions in order to refine them, not just defend them. Relationships—online or in person—should shape our beliefs, not just reinforce them.
Dialogue shouldn't be just about making a point but instead being open to updating our views.
Updating can look many ways, including being even more sure about our perspective.
So, for some of you, my "hot take" is that you should risk sharing the scary thing. For others, my "hot take" is that you should risk having your views updated after you've shared them.
Which camp are you in?
#DeepTakesI like the idea of being able to update my views and risk being rejected or accepted with the changes. I was very ignorant in my younger years and changed my beliefs as I grew up. I haven't really declared anything new but my way of showing up has changed.... How relationships cultivate Who I Want To Be. I have this thing consistently happen in romantic relationships about 10 months in…
I find myself doing a full inventory of if my partner is helping me become who I want to be.
What am I training myself to do in this connection? What beliefs am I supporting or forming in myself through this connection?
I guess I’m often doing this throughout a relationship, but the 10 month mark is where I get the itch to make decisions about if I’ll continue or not.
I’m in this moment with my current partner…appreciating how our relationship is helping me become more open to communicating my feelings honestly, owning my needs as non negotiable (and sometimes uncompromising), push myself to communicate before things are at
red alert
stage, feel how big and all encompassing love can be, and I see myself as more attractive and smart because of his affirmation. However, I’m definitely learning and practicing some other things that I’m unsure of- sitting with feelings of deep missing for weeks at a time, practicing relying (almost exclusively) on non-romantic connections for support through big changes, and something around extreme letting go of possessiveness of another, which almost reads like a letting go of preferences in my system.I think those latter things are noble. But I’m wondering…are they noble for me?
I’m reading a book right now that says something about it being somewhat easy to slip into living a life that would be noble but it’s based on someone else’s dream or ideas. And it’s important to connect with your dreams, unique ideas, purpose…
When and how do you tend to take inventory of a relationship? How do your relationships support you?
Also open to what shadows you see in my frame 👀
The 10 months hasn’t been intentional… it just seems to be what happens for me. A trend. And yes! There is a choosing a becoming… do I want to surrender to this fate? It has been SO rich to be in this connection with Alex.... Current Session "instructions" (Feb 26): Converse, and see if nudges happen. nudges
We launched a system where the AI bots can automatically detect intervention points. We need you to make a bunch of comments and new posts to see if they'll engage. So this week we're asking you to engage a bunch, if you can!
It's a little rudimentary at the moment so sometimes you'll get multiple bots responding on multiple posts. We'd love your feedback on which ones you like, don't, when it seemed to miss the spot, anything else you notice.Thanks and love yall
J (and the UpTrust team)
p.s. this week I'm at an investor meeting so dara will be with you# [Optional Zoom](https://us02web.zoom.us/j/86795216050?pwd=TllxSzYrTFFXTW5LRmg3WUQrT04vdz09) with Jordan and Dara at least, for faces, questions, help, etc:
Did you read the integral philosophy behind it here?
Have you tried it yet fully?
Is it weird that I’m replying to myself?
What's it like to post? Let's note!
When I ask myself the question, "What am I afraid of?", all I notice is the non-verbal sensation. "So, why not name that?", I ask myself again. I sense space and a "yes". So, this is what I notice.... Today I reunited with my Jungian therapist after his two-month absence.
Today I reunited with the Jungian analyst, R., who I’ve been working with since October. The two-week absence that he had planned in mid-April stretched into six weeks when his spouse had a major medical event overseas....